Catching up…

I was going to start this blog with an apology but then I had to stop myself. It is pretty pointless to apologise for things I can’t control, and I certainly haven’t been able to control the fact that life has just got in the way of blogging recently.

A new job, the inevitable Christmas term mounting chaos means that blogging has had to take a back seat. It is as simple as that.

Well, almost…

You see after a few weeks back at work, when the lazy hazy days of summer were firmly behind me I started to feel the pressure of blogging. Trying to fit in great reviews was a challenge and suddenly reading started to feel like a bit of a chore.

For the first time since my university days I looked around at the mounting pile of books and began to feel overwhelmed. Usually I will quite happily hoard reading material without any real thought of when or how I am going to get it all read; there is something liberating in just have a huge choice of books around me. But suddenly the liberty was vanishing and I was feeling the pressure.

The pressure was probably self imposed but it was real. I was waking up feeling guilty about ARCs I hadn’t read, I started avoiding reading certain books because I didn’t want to have to make notes or erudite comments.

In short reading was in danger of becoming a job, not a pleasure.

And that is something reading has never been to me.

And something I never want it to be.

So for a while I had to stop. Not stop reading but stop blogging.

I have kept up with my blog tour commitments, and will absolutely continue to do so but I have dramatically cut down on agreeing to others.

I haven’t requested an ARC for over two months. I won’t lie this has been HARD! On a superficial level I miss the thrill of book post and the chance to have a sneaky peek at greatness to come. So many times I have logged to Twitter and seen beautiful books by fabulous authors and my fingers have twitched over my email. But have restrained myself. I often have to have stern words, telling myself the book trolley is full…and the night stand…and the book shelves. I have to tell myself that I can’t read everything.

What I haven’t done is stop reading. I have given myself permission to read away from the pile, to read out of my self imposed order and to remind myself of the love of books again.

I feel like I have pulled myself back from a bit of a brink. There is no doubt I love blogging but I love reading more. And I don’t want to lose sight of that.

As a blogger I fully intend to stick around, but I have to admit to myself that I can’t take on every book written and sometimes a pause is a necessary thing.

In the last month I have read some cracking books, and I fully intend to write a catch up blog very soon. But if I don’t then the world won’t end…

Thanks for joining me on my Sunday ramble…

And KEEP READING!

Rachel x

6 thoughts on “Catching up…

  1. I love this post and I’m happy to have stumbled across your lovely blog. I’ve drastically stepped back from blog tours and ARCs lately as well because I just wanted to read what I wanted – I don’t need or want the pressure either and I still love blogging.

    I’m looking forward to getting to know your blog better 😀

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  2. I love this! And in particular your honesty. Self awareness is a powerful, powerful thing and getting back to your ‘why’, the love of books and the reason why you started blogging is such a great example to us all. I’m a huge believer in spending as little time as possible on ‘shoulds’. Life definately is too short for them. Thank you for sharing and happy reading!

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  3. Hi Rachel,
    I’ve burnt out as a book blogger. I have agreed to one thing in Dec, one in Jan, one in Feb. The reality is, I want to write and book blogging is making that impossible. Have managed to write one short story over October, and intend to write one in November too…it may have a watery theme 😏 I totally hear, and feel what you are saying because I am there xx

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